I should have been class of 2014, but I am here, class of 2019— finally graduating!
Why didn’t you graduate with your class in 2014?
School always had the same theme for me: I wouldn’t do my homework, and when I was in class I had no idea what was going on. I would sit and try my hardest to listen and understand what the teacher was explaining but by the time her lesson was over and she handing out the in class assignment I would have no idea what was going on. I would always be sitting there looking around, watching everyone with their heads down, writing down their answers, and I would feel completely lost and just like a fucking idiot. I remember feeling discouraged and inadequate in a classroom setting since.. well as long as I can remember. Having dyslexia did not help.
In the summer before 8th grade I was expelled during summer school(blog post for another time), and my only option was alternative school, where I met the people I would soon get into a lot of trouble with. By the time I got into high school, I was already far behind in every subject, especially math. I went to 4 different schools in highs school and by the time I was a junior I had given up and decided I was going to be a high school drop out.
What made you go back for your diploma?
I have wanted to graduated for some time now because most of the career choices that interest me require a high school diploma, I just wasn’t sure where to go, or how to begin the process of achieving it. I studied for a bit to get my GED but it was not working out and the school I was very periodically attending to study for my GED did not motivate me by any means. It was something I wanted, something I dreamed about, especially after losing my son, but for some reason I felt very discouraged about the possibility and reality of getting my GED. I decided once again that maybe getting my GED or diploma wasn’t in the cards for me and went back to googling, “High paying jobs for people without a high school diploma.”
My sister goes to a high school that is attached to my counties community college, where she takes high school and college classes at the same time. One of her teachers mentioned to my sister that they also have an adult program for young adults who sort of fell through cracks (me). My sister told me about this program and I contacted them right away, and because of this amazing program, and the help of my incredible teacher, I WORKED MY ASS OFF AND GOT MY DIPLOMA!
How does it feel?
WONDERFUL!! I feel like I have so many more options now (because I do), and I am not limited by anything. I am going to start going to my community college this fall and hopefully find a career that fulfills me in all the ways I have been dreaming of! I am so happy and I would 100% recommend looking into the adult ed programs in your area if you are also missing your high school diploma. It was worth it, all days doing homework, all the days having to sit and concentrate after being out of school for so long. I feel like I am on cloud 9 and I can do anything now.
*Thank you to my son Maya, who was stillborn at 37 weeks on June 28th, 2017. I did this because of you. This was made possible because of you and what our short time together taught me, and how your death made me grow as a person. Thank you for showing me what true love is and helping me be the person I am today. I love you so much.