Diary Entry #9

7/9/19 10:22

Pregnant and sick! Yay! Haha.

But in all seriousness I am so uncomfortable and pregnant. Being sick while you are pregnant is the absolute worst and I was feeling way too confident because I haven’t caught a cold this whole pregnant.. but here I am. There is still so much to get done and do but my head feels like it has rocks in it, which makes “doing” impossible. The other day I felt like I was going to pass out while walking around the hardware store with my SO and then the next day (yesterday) I felt the same when walking up the stairs to my doctors office for my second NST (non stress test). I talked to my doctor about my dizzy spells and she said she was not worried being that I am in my 3rd trimester and to take the dizziness as a queue to take it easy.

As far as emotionally, again, I don’t know. Pregnancy after loss is incredibly difficult and I would not wish it on anymore, but at the same time: I am grateful. Grateful to be here, grateful to be pregnant again— with a little girl.

Sorry I haven’t been blogging too much and my diaries are pathetically short—As I am getting further along my emotions and pregnancy brain are making it impossible to function, let alone write anything worth reading.

 

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