The angry child that lives in me.

My grandmother loves to tell a story about a road trip my grandpa, grandma, brother, and myself took when I was around 3. The story goes that being the 2 kids under 3 that we were, we were growing pretty restless being in the car, and in true Arianna fashion I was doing something to…

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Taking breaks from social media to reclaim yourself.

After my stillbirth I found myself falling down the rabbit whole that is social media. I knew exactly what was happening in everyone else’s lives, even more than I really knew what was going on in mine. I would sit for hours looking on Instagram seeing who was liking what, who was dating who, what…

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Diary Entry #2

5/22/19 7:58 Lately I have been doing a lot of reflecting about my anger and what how it has shaped myself and how I interact with others. Being anger has always been a safety net for me; kept me away from people who hurt me, made others keep a distance, and always saved me from…

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Meeting My Dad For The First Time When I was 17!

The story My Mom met my father through her friend when she was 19, I call him Uncle Damian. My Dad had left Stockton to come to Santa Cruz to hangout by the beach and sell drugs. Knowing my mom, and knowing how she was when she was a young girl, she probably thought my…

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Diary Entry #1

5/19/19 9:24 pm Today was an okay today, considering how hard the last week has been. My car got broken into for the second time (the first time they smashed my window), and they stole everything out of my glove box, which I had forgotten to take out my pink slip. We are also not…

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Pregnancy Update!

  How’s the Baby? She’s great! She moves constantly, which is the best feeling in the world. After losing my son one of the things I looked forward to most about being pregnant again was feeling those little kicks, and she is quit the kicker so I am incredibly lucky. My boyfriend and I love…

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The Gift He Gave Me

    I never heard Maya cry, I never saw him open his eyes. When he was laid down on my chest he was not moving, or screaming, he was completely silent and still. Seeing him for the first time, I was shocked that we created him, that together my boyfriend and I made a…

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What Has Helped Me With My Pregnancy After Loss

  HAVING AN AMAZING DOCTOR/OBGYN OFFICE I had a terrible experience with my doctors when I was pregnant with Maya, so I wanted to make sure that if I were to get pregnant again I had a completely different experience. My new doctor is AMAZING; she reassures me, listens to me, UNDERSTANDS ME, does not…

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