Diary Entry #12

7/29/19 9:56 AM It is almost 10:00 in the morning and I am barely functioning (seriously can’t wait to be allowed coffee.) I haven’t been getting any sleep lately because sleep when you are at the end of 3rd trimester is nearly impossible and then to add being absolutely-fucking-terrified-anxious-wreck to it makes me impossible. I…

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To The Lady In The Grocery Store Who Asked Me If This Was My First Pregnancy

  I know pregnant women are cute and exciting. I know when you saw me walk up you felt joyous because you too are a mother and everything about motherhood and childbirth is magical to you. I know you mean well and had every intention of being kind and uplifting. I know you weren’t trying…

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Diary Entry #11 – Our Maternity Shoot Preview!

7/21/19 9:00 PM   My Aunt is still in the process of editing our photos from our maternity shoot today, so I only have this picture.. but I could not wait to share it! I haven’t announced my pregnancy to anyone but close family, a couple friends (literally 2), this blog, and my instagram—which I…

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My 2nd Pregnancy Update!

How’s baby? Baby is kicking up a storm and my growing belly is making me incredibly exhausted and my nights sleepless. I had a scare earlier this week when I thought my water may have broken, turned out I just peed myself (lol), but it was terrifying nonetheless. I make sure to stay on top…

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Diary Entry #10

4:16 PM 7/10/19 I am still sick but I think it is finally starting to let up a bit. I haven’t done anything the last two days because I have been sick and being sick and pregnant makes getting around and getting things done feel impossible. My existential has not let up one bit and…

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Diary Entry #9

7/9/19 10:22 Pregnant and sick! Yay! Haha. But in all seriousness I am so uncomfortable and pregnant. Being sick while you are pregnant is the absolute worst and I was feeling way too confident because I haven’t caught a cold this whole pregnant.. but here I am. There is still so much to get done…

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Diary Entry #8

7/5/19 10:23 am I have not been able to tell anyone who asks how I feel: expressing what my anxiety feels like, or what people can do to help me. I pretty certain it is the fear: the fear is is making me feel stuck and scared to understand how I really feel. Pregnancy after…

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Diary Entry #5

6/18/19 10:02 pm I have been having quit the existential crisis lately. I am so proud of myself for graduating high school and so excited to be able to explore the endless amount of possibilities/opportunities that are now at my fingertips, however I am scared it’s too late. Scared that by the time I figure…

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Pregnancy Update!

  How’s the Baby? She’s great! She moves constantly, which is the best feeling in the world. After losing my son one of the things I looked forward to most about being pregnant again was feeling those little kicks, and she is quit the kicker so I am incredibly lucky. My boyfriend and I love…

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What Has Helped Me With My Pregnancy After Loss

  HAVING AN AMAZING DOCTOR/OBGYN OFFICE I had a terrible experience with my doctors when I was pregnant with Maya, so I wanted to make sure that if I were to get pregnant again I had a completely different experience. My new doctor is AMAZING; she reassures me, listens to me, UNDERSTANDS ME, does not…

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